Parents’ Heartache

I come to realise that when we were younger, playing truant is forgivable or at least understandable. It's all part and parcel of growing up. Well, that's what i believe though, not speaking on behalf of anyone. Although, i am not saying that it is OKAY to do so but pandai-pandai la...

However, when adults play truant, it is no longer forgivable. In fact, it is just plain irresponsible and ignorant. Why? Come on people....our parents are not immortals. They are just normal human beings who like all of us can grow old and fragile. By right, when we have all grown up as adults and our parents have grown old...they are suppose enjoy their remaining years and not worry about their grown up kids. 

How can parents feel happy and enjoy life when all they see is their grown up kids who can't think of their future, who still leech on them although they are working adults, who goes out every night and come home very late (or very early in the morning) at night partying, getting wasted—weekends cannot party one a?, who doesn't give a damn if the car insurance is overdue and the uncle has to pay for him/her and end up the uncle has to rudely "REMIND" the parents to pay him back, who doesn't think that securing a steady job even when the opportunity is there is important because, maybe because he/she thinks he/she can score better---but when? Remember, it's the world recession now!, who thinks that his/her friends are more important than spending quality time with the parents/family, who takes their parents for granted, who would never answer his/her calls whenever the parents call while he/she is out with her friends stating the same stale reason—"ndak dgr abis sia kasi silent", etc.....

Wake up! You are no longer teenagers. You are bloody adults now. I am not saying i am angel, i can assure i definitely am not...i am still learning how to become a better child because i know i was and probably am still a disappointment to my parents but at least, i am aware...now.

You may say that it's not easy living with them under the same roof, but that's just mere excuse. Whatever it is, they are your parents, regardless of whether, living together or separately. The matter of the fact is...they are suffering...it hurts to hear sound of your mother's voice crackle while trying to hold back the tears, or when she starts talking about how she wishes that she would die soon rather seeing you throw away your life, when your father starts talking about how he won't be able to live to see you get hitched, when your father just sleep whole day in the bedroom because he is too distraught and disappointed with your actions, when your mother calls to say that "kanapala anak-anak kami semua ni makin tua makin macam mau cacat tu utak?", when your mother said that she has been trying to put sense into the thick head of yours and your father would say " janganlah selalu berkeras sama derang macam tu...basar suda derang juga...jangan kasih tekanan" because he believes that you will change, when your father would love to go yamcha with his children but your friends are more important...

What hurts the most is when --- your father and mother would have breakfast, dinner or yamcha ALONE by themselves because their beloved kids don't think that they are important enough to be hanging out with....

I wonder if you have any idea how much pain you are putting on them. You may not even realise it maybe because you are too ignorant or maybe you are in denial....

Well, i hope you read this...and when you do.....i hope you know what to do...and i hope it's the right thing....


 


 

God bless....

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Yuhu....:P

Alamak! Bersarang spider already my blog dis adeiii...Been very very LAZY to update not because i have lost my way hehehe..just pure laziness, owh and also i actually am busy bah lately with the wedding just around the corner, still loads of things need to be done...aduuii..

First off, my tailor made wedding gown is done! BUT....unfortunately, ndak ngam suda....i had myself measured way before i started my journey to lose weight and now that i have lost few lbs, the damn gown doesn't fit anymoreL What to do next? Alteration lorr...nasib baik the tailor is located in SS2 only and nda payah terbang balik all the way to KK to get it altered weeee~~~

Reception gown? Bulum pun bikin. I have the design on hand ody what i want but next week la sa pi urus tu he he he...

Pa lagi ah....actually banyak butul bah mo repot ni sini tapi sa pun blur blur suda apa mo tulis..tapi tekpa...paling penting is latest update on my weight la kan? :P



Fyi, for the last couple of weeks, my weight hit plateau. It made me feeling slightly de-motivated for moment there (sepalah bah nda pandai rasa gitu kan? Barabis ko bereksesais dan diet..nda pandai turun-turun tu berat...) but, i wasn't about to give up.

Thanks to a friend of mine who suggested HIGH INTENSITY INTERVAL WORKOUT to me. I did some read-ups and research on the subject and it seemed like a solution for me to free myself from the rut. The next day, i decided to try it out and after doing it for 3 consecutive days (actually not advisable to do HIIT without at least 1 day rest in betweens but what the heck...i was desperate haha), voila! I successfully managed to lose 2kg! yeehaa!! Fyi, my starting weight on the first day of last week was 95.8kg. Owh, and fyi too...i have started to weigh myself daily already but i only record down the final weight every Friday/Saturday.

Bah....ni la berat sia yang terkini (as at 12th September 2009):

93kg

Pictures will only be uploaded after i have successfully lose another 5kg (which will be 88kg). Sekian terima kasih.

 

Monday, September 14, 2009

:: Lost and Found ::

Hello people! Ya ya..i know...have not been updating for few weeks already. Not to worry my fellow friends and readers, in case you all are wondering if i have given up on my quest...well, i'm glad to tell you that i have not and am still on track...despite some minor hiccups lah....you'll know what i mean by minor hiccups after seeing the pictures below:P... 
No worries, si Dopey is back on track.....Last 3weeks went back to KK for my prewedding photoshoot and as expected, i ate like there was no tomorrow. Kesian bah sia...kerinduan teramat sangat sama masakan mummy sia and the kampung food a.k.a bosou, tuhau, hinava, ikan masin leiniking...perrghhhh....and expected also, of course with all the amount of calories intake and no gym...i gained few pounds..nothing major...Although i did feel kind of demotivated but nothing can stop me in achieving my goal hahahaha.....
Bah...sila-sila lah tinguk gambar-gambar:P
Till then~
7th August 2009
Notice the spike :P, that's the minor hiccup i was talking about hi hi hi

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Weigh In Day No.10





Dear All,
Last night was my weigh-in. Starting from last night, my weigh in day will be every Friday (provided i am in town la..else, it would be Saturday or no weigh in at all til the week after).Why Friday? Please proceed reading the next paragraph.

Before i proceed to my result and progress, i would like to thank Ms.Alusism for posting an entry about MALAYSIAN BLOGGER-THE BIGGEST LOSER CONTEST in her blog. It’s because of her, i managed to get know about it and successfully managed to get myself into the contest as late participant. Their weigh in is every Friday. Hence, the change of weigh in day :P


For your information, the reason for me joining is not because i want to win (well, i do want to win to a certain extent but that’s not the main reason la). The main reason why i want to be part of this event is because i want and need the motivation. By knowing and following up other contestants’ weight loss journey, is a MAJOR MOTIVATIONAL PUSH for me. It gives me the assurance that i am not ALONE on this and there are other people who are just like me-having weight issues, JUST LIKE ME. Sense of relief pun ada...at least, whenever i feel demotivated, i can always turn to their blogs and read about their stories to motivate me back...he he he...

Okay, now let’s move on to the result:
Previously,
Week 1 – 108.5kg
Week 2 – 107.5kg
Week 3 – 105.5kg
Week 4 – 104 kg
Week 5 – 103 kg
Week 6 – 102 kg
Week 7 – 100.5 kg
Week 8 - 99.4 kg
Week 9 – 98.3 kg

Week 10 – 96.9 kg

and i thought i gained weight because i did not go to gym the whole week this week because this week “AUNTY VISIT a.k.a BENDERA JIPUN”-period cramps and back aches. Plus, really really heavy flow. However, i did my own light exercise at home using free weights and abs exercise...Although, i must admit that i kinda did went slightly over on the food intake for the first couple of days but i guess gulping down 2L of water and 1L of green tea everyday , kinda helped kua hi hi hi..
Fyi, i have not been having my menses for almost 3months already until this week. Doctor said, it’s the hormonal imbalance due to weight problem on top of PCOS. This means that, me losing weight is actually showing signs of reproductive benefits already, which is good.


Saturday, July 18, 2009

Pictures: Before and After 10kg

Okay peeps! Here are the pics before and after losing 10kg, as promised. Obviously, not much visual difference but hey, at least ada juga siiikit...and the most important thing is how i feel! After losing 10kg, i actually feel much much better. in terms of my overall health - stamina improved, sleep apnea no more (i would like to believe so la because lately i sleep like a baby and wake up very well rested every morning. Plus, V-man said he never hear me snore anymore he he he), and my favourite Ms.Read and Mark's and Spencer jeans sudah longgar kau-kau. Just imagine that, i do not need to unbutton and unzip my jeans to take it off. All i need to do is just wiggle my ass a bit and pull it down gently, VOILA! jeans are off hahaha....Somemore, nowadays, whenever i run up and down the stairs with my jeans on, i have to grab hold of if, else, sure terlondeh! It happened before masa sa pi Mid Valley tapi nasib baik teda orang belakang or depan sa..kalau nda mimang kuyak aaaa....almost trip and fell di tangga adedeiii :)

Next target is to lose another 10kg more by end of September 2009 :0 Wish me luck peeps! ;)

Notice the V-shaped chin (July 2009) and U-shaped chin (Feb 2009)

Err...i guess this one lies on the stomach. Notice the slight bulge in the May 2009 pic as opposed to the July 2009 pic. ;)

Monday, July 13, 2009